_{ok what the hell}

^{me: drops a plotting call
also me: disappears on the following day}

_{I’m just now seeing this but this hit me Hard}

_{i mean they have so much in common !!  hermione is so dedicated, well-read and a logical thinker  —  she has EVERYTHING he values in a student, but he can’t stop being a dick for a second :/}

_{sometimes i catch myself wondering how things would have been like in hogwarts if sev wasn’t so biased or was more willing to cultivate good, healthy relationships with his students.  he is admittedly one of the most proficient professors around and he does enjoy teaching ( remember how he became much more flexible after finally taking up dada )  after all.  i just wish he had the ability to see through his own prejudices and like, be proud of his students and what they buit together.  can you imagine how much he’d be proud of hermione. can you.} 

_{me: i love severus snape and i need to write more meta
me, half way through said meta: why do i love him again}

_{not being entirely satisfied with the way snape looks in the movies but also being too attached to al//an rick//man you feel my struggle}

^{when people reduce severus’ character to ‘loved lily and is mean’}

so here’s a little TO DO LIST for my own reference !  

• come up w/ verse tags + a page for them
  
• make more icons
• maybe craft a fancy theme 
• write meta on:

           - sev’s parents
           - childhood
           - his time as a death eater 
           - habits
           - relationship w/ other professors

i think people need to start learning that just because you like a character, that doesn’t necessarily mean they are a good person. this is not real life, so it’s alright to be drawn to personalities that don’t exactly fit in our goody two-shoes ideals. characters that have gone through trauma and didn’t overcome them graciously by becoming better and stronger people are interesting  ( and so are the ones who did ) and i honestly think that merely reducing them to victims is a disservice.

like yeah, i do think snape is a product of his environment. i do think being neglected and bullied as a child, plus the loss of lily ( firstly to his temper, then to voldemort ) were fundamental to eventually shape him into the man harry meets in his first year. people deal very differently with trauma and clearly sev wasn’t that great at that, which, yes, has a lot to do with the person he is, but also to the overall lack of support he got from the people around him. still, tormenting children isn’t the kind of thing a good person should or would do and neither is joining the death eaters, even if in a desperate attempt to find a place to belong. was his dedication to dumbledore and protecting harry memorable ? absolutely. did he go through a terrible childhood ? yes. is that enough to cancel out every bad doing my cursed son did in his miserable 38 years of life ? absolutely not, and that’s why he’s such an interesting character to me. please let snape stay grey and awful.